I'm falling for you like an avalanche.

Here we go.

And for once it might be grand, to have someone understand, I want so much more than they've got planned ...
I really find truth to those lyrics. No one seems to notice how passionate I am about becoming a police officer.
They all know I want to (except my Dad, I think) and they all probably think it will never happen.
I want so much to be one. More than anyone knows. Anyone. I wish I could find someone that understands it. Really.

`I need you now more than ever.` I hate when someone says that to me then leaves me hanging for another half an hour until I can call them. I'm happy it wasn't what I expected.
I wasn't ready for shock to set in or anything like that.
It turned out to be something totally different than I expected ... sort of.
I'm relieved ... sort of.

It'll all be okay ... eventually.